I was just wasting time. Like time should ever be wasted, i know.. my mind is now working overtime, admonishing me for that statement. But it's true. I was not spending my time wisely, yet I still managed to learn something new... about myself. But is it really "new" if it's been there all the time? It's probably more accurate to say that I recognized something in myself that I've never really paid attention to before.
In most cases, I don't like help. There. I said it. Please don't help me. How whacked is that?
All I was doing was taking an innocent little quiz called "
What I Look For in a Friend." Then when I was finished, it compared me with my other friends who took the same quiz. I was feeling pretty good about my choices all the way down to "helper." In my lineup of qualities that I think are pretty important, "helper" was the low one on the totem pole of characteristics. It got me to wondering why I was putting "helper" at the end.. who wouldn't want a friend who was a good "helper." Me, obviously.
Upon examining this further, I came to realize that it's not necessarily that I don't want a good helper for a friend, but that I value other things much more than being helped. I value honesty.. I value someone who is compassionate, a good listener. I value common interests.. I value someone who I can count on for a good hearty belly laugh.. or someone who will listen as I whine and complain about how life stinks, and then promptly point out all the good things and tell me to pull it together! I value loyalty. I value a friend who loves at all times. When you add all this up.. doesn't "helper" fit in to all these things?
"Helper" to me is all-encompassing.. I believe we
help each other along in this life by being honest, by listening, by spurring each other on to be a better friend, a stronger friend, more loving and compassionate.
So now, instead of asking you to let me go it alone, or as Madie would often say, "I do it myself".. I say, "Please help me." Help me be a better wife.. a better mom.. a better sister.. and a better friend.
Is our winter so early this year that it never left from last year? I woke up rather early this morning and glanced out the window from the warmth of our bed. I thought.. hmm.. I don't have my glasses on so I can't see worth beans, but that really looks white. So I put my glasses on, crawled out of my cozy haven of rest, and sure enough - we have at least 3-4 inches of snow and it's still snowing! I can't wait for Madie to wake up.. hopefully it will warm up slowly today so she can enjoy it. Our neighbor wants to have a chat with her - I'm sure he'll be over later. He told her that she needs to stop praying for snow and just let it stay on Mt. Baker, where it belongs. Ha!
